Sometimes I am held captive by my past, its grip is strong and its reach is vast. There's no need for lies or make believe here, because...
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Realizations: a Donnie story
Welcome to my newest endeavor! I've ben wanting to write for a long time, but I never had the courage to actually do it. I recently lost someone that was very encouraging about it, I only wish he was here to read it. If you click below you will find Chapter 1 of my story Realizations. It is a Walking Dead story featuring Daryl and Connie. I hope you enjoy it!
I’m a mom, wife, lover, dreamer, reader, thinker, researcher and so much more. Every project I’ve taken on was guided by my curiosity, creativity and diligence. I use this space to showcase my current and past work, to detail upcoming plans and to make my presence felt in the world. I’m constantly changing and evolving, so what you see here today might not be here tomorrow!
Welcome to 2021! This is going to be a very active year for us at Dive into the Deep. Coming this year I promise you will finally get to hear my voice weekly on my podcast, blogs coming out weekly, vlogs, amazing photography, showcasing talents across the globe and so much more! There are many projects behind the scenes that will come out as surprises later on this year. I hope you are as excited about the future as we are!
My feelings for him are different from the other. I'll always love the first like I'll never love another.
He and I were as happy as we could be, then we fell apart and I lost a part of me.
Along came the other during my time of need, and now I find that my heart is filled with greed.
Yearning for the love of one and affections of the other, but being afraid to become the other one's lover.
Can you see inside of me? Will you cry my tears for me? Take this anguish and set me free. Massage my heart and sustain me. Should we laugh? Smile? Kiss? Hold my hand as we create bliss.
A God given gift sent to watch over those of us on earth. Everyone knew you were special from the day of your birth.
We watched you grow from one in a million to more than a woman; never knowing from the start that you were our revolution.
Everyday I wake up wishing that it were all just a dream; because I wanted to see the full potential of our R&B diva supreme.
Your fans will never let your spirit die; we will remember you now and forever. Because from you we have learned to never give up no matter how hard the endeavor.
This is that part. The part when I realize that I never should have chased in the first place. The part nobody likes. The anger is gone, the hurt is buried, the tears are dry. I will never forget, but I always forgive. One day in the future when I see you, I will remember our good times and I will be able to wave and smile. But for now, all I can say is...Goodbye.
There for me when no one else will be. Tragedy? No I call that family. My trials and tribulations have opened my eyes to the meaning behind our very sad lives.
Like minded people to hold you down. A loving smile from eyes chocolate brown. A baby girl all precious and sweet. The neighbor that helped you when you fell in the street.
See family comes in all different forms, though most may prefer to stick to the norm. We all aren’t that lucky, an unfortunate truth. So when you find those you call family please don’t turn them aloof.
The day will come when all the bullshit ceases and happiness increases. Misery should never be a way of life, but the very thing that makes us see the way life is supposed to be. Love and happiness never chose me, but I determinedly hunt them everyday and I won’t stop until I have my way with them. Devouring them before they can run away...
The birds and the bees and the beautiful trees. The stars in the sky watch our lives pass us by. I sit in the grass to contemplate the past, but wind up in a stupor afraid of the future. I need a crisp ocean breeze to set my mind at ease. Perhaps a flutter from a butterfly to glimpse within my minds eye. She’s everywhere and nowhere all at the same time, the mother of all moms superbly sublime.
Every night you come to me as if you never left. As I lay here waiting anticipation makes me lose my breath.
As the day comes to an end and darkness falls, I know that you’re coming from the shadows on my wall.
The way you shine upon me makes me feel like a woman anew. People never understand when I explain the depths of love I have for you.
As twilight approaches and the time has come for you to go, I find myself wondering about that dark side you never show.
As I stand here with my eyes closed I can sense the thundering waves crashing toward me. In most people this would evoke fear but instead I find it calm and welcoming. I inhale…knowing my fate is coming for me, and in that last breath is where all that is me exists. As I exhale and that final wave hits my face I say a silent prayer for all those that I’ve loved…
Awake again at 3am. The wandering mind with limitless potential to take me to all the places I crave to be, but it always brings me straight to you. The nucleus of my thoughts. My center of gravity. You are the place where it never rains. The mate to match my soul. Your sunlight makes my flowers bloom on the cloudiest of days. Your lightest touch can set my body ablaze in the most sensual ways. So on this night at 3am let your mind travel to me and you’ll find me waiting in your fantasies.
I loved you in a different way. Probably more than I could ever say. I know that you’re not him and I’m not her, but I just want one night for us to be together.
When you tell me that you love me, is it because you think that’s what I need to hear? Because every time you say it my heart breaks when you disappear.
I know this is forbidden and considered against the rules. You love me then you leave me in a state where I’m confused.
Was I a game? A conquest? A fantasy? I couldn’t have been imagining the spark between you and me.
Now that you’re gone my soul hurts when I think of you. Somehow you have managed to tear my heart into two.
One day I may be over you, but for now I just cry and cry. To you I say I love you, and at the same time goodbye.